With love.

I love you... I love with evey ounce of my blood... My every cell of the body loves you.. In the past month how much I missed you? Every Moment. How much I wanted to reach out to you? Every Moment. How much I still suffer? Every Moment. But somethings changed I gradually started enjoying it. Fighting with it. To be on your own and just to be on your own. I have created and continue to create future senerios of us meeting, on what will I say? Should I drop into your room? Should I ask Ashu? Is there a chance? Can you grow our lost love back? What will I say? What will I do? Where will we meet? How will it go? Where would I stay? But it came to me today I have a option of not meeting you altoghether. Not because I am pride. I dont think where there is love there is space for pride. But in my hearts of hearts, I want this to go on. My spritual journey. You have taught me a lot in relationship and you continue teaching it t me even after we have ended. I love you. But I love myself a bit more. I want to explore this area more. Of self love. Of being to kind to first me and then to the world. And I dont want to cause of pain of rejection or misunderstanding. So I wont tell you that I am in Delhi. You dont need to know. That would be easy on both of us. No? That is that. I have been practicing on feeling emotion and not reacting to them, just feeling them. I have done well with grief and anxiety. I think I can manage desire too. Lets see how this one goes. Remember I love you with every thing I have got. But I love myself a tad bit more.