Happy people

I find my commune
In happy people
In people
Who are dancing in a club
In people
Who are chanting Rama's Name
In people
Who look each other with joy
In happy people
I am lost
In happy people
There is homecoming.

A Brief For The Defense Poem by Jack Gilbert

Sorrow everywhere. Slaughter everywhere. If babies
are not starving someplace, they are starving
somewhere else. With flies in their nostrils.
But we enjoy our lives because that's what God wants.
Otherwise the mornings before summer dawn would not
be made so fine. The Bengal tiger would not
be fashioned so miraculously well. The poor women
at the fountain are laughing together between
the suffering they have known and the awfulness
in their future, smiling and laughing while somebody
in the village is very sick. There is laughter
every day in the terrible streets of Calcutta,
and the women laugh in the cages of Bombay.
If we deny our happiness, resist our satisfaction,
we lessen the importance of their deprivation.
We must risk delight. We can do without pleasure,
but not delight. Not enjoyment. We must have
the stubbornness to accept our gladness in the ruthless
furnace of this world. To make injustice the only
measure of our attention is to praise the Devil.
If the locomotive of the Lord runs us down,
we should give thanks that the end had magnitude.
We must admit there will be music despite everything.
We stand at the prow again of a small ship
anchored late at night in the tiny port
looking over to the sleeping island: the waterfront
is three shuttered cafés and one naked light burning.
To hear the faint sound of oars in the silence as a rowboat
comes slowly out and then goes back is truly worth
all the years of sorrow that are to come. 

Jack Gilbert

Intangible

This moment,
A photograph of perceived reality
A bunch of judgements,
Categories
Years down the line
You will re visit this
Yes, This moment
Not completely,
Partially.
In bits and pieces
A memory.

How do I know?
That the recorder
Will remember this,
Among millions of snapshot
It takes of us every minute
And this will be your narrative
Our story?

Your yardstick
To measure
To test
To remember
When Much will be lost
In between
Intangible.

Who are you?

Am I the sum of all parts,
Am I the part of the sum,
Am I the soul wondering
Am I the universe within
Am I tender as a saple
Am I the strong as tree
Am I the people's person
Am I the silence of the sea
Am I the cosmic play
Am I the witness of thee
Am I the love for all
Am I just so full of me
Am I all but none
Am I be..

I need youuu

Hey I love you. And I need you all the time. Like not in a good healthy sense. But all the time. Like there was this story of Kalidas of how he was thrown out of the house by his wife before he would become an established writer. I am that Kalidas. But I am practical also because I know that there was a Kalidas and it didn't go so well for him. So I try to do my work getting things done, before getting thrown out. And I understand that you have to play your part as well. So I assume when you are not around that you are happy somewhere. And I need not disturb you again and again that I need you. So you need to know that I need you always even when I am taking a break from needing you. And it feels sooooo good to have you in whatever little form I can have you. Therefore it's always a good time to call. Therefore it's always a good time to show up. And even though I don't ask it, you might as well show up.

You carry me

You carry me,
In your heart,
In your words,
In your actions

I know
Me gets heavy
Sometimes
And burden
Your heart
Your words
your actions

And with me,
You inevitably carry
My towny dreams,
My hopes for future,
My love
For your love.

So I urge you
Darling,
To be aware,
When you carry me,
In your heart,
In your words,
And in your actions..

Tum nahi ho

Tumhe kho kar,
Jo kuch baatein badiya hui hai
Us list meh
Shayad top meh hai
Ab kaafi km hogaya hai
Tumhe khone ka daar
Han ab bhi
Khul jati hai neend
Teek char baje meri
Ab bhi
Phir wapis nahi aati
Magar km se km
Tumhara last seen dekhna nahi padta
Ya calculate nahi karna padta
Ki 3 baje status like kiya hai
Toh char baje se phele toh nahi soyi hogi
Hum jante hai,
Tumhara kusoor nahi hai isme
Kabhi nahi tha
Humara hi darr tha
Aur jaise ki hote hai darr
Kafi irrational se
Waisa hi tha
Ab nahi hai
Kyunki tum bhi toh nahi ho
Kaha ho?
Bas yaha nahi ho..

Shepard

Be on the Guard,
Remain vigillent,
They are waiting for you,
to sleep..

Walk Carefully,
Along the muddy lane
Preserve the dress
Attention Please

Its autumn
And autumn it will be
For somtime
Sweep the floor,
Dilligently

The tree is not the foe,
Nor a friend
Its a tree.

Your reward is not there
It's here
Grab it
It's for you
Absolutely
FREE!!

Tum nahi ho

Tumhe kho kar,
Jo kuch baatein badiya hui hai
Us list meh
Shayad top meh hai
Ab kaafi km hogaya hai
Tumhe khone ka daar
Han ab bhi
Khul jati hai neend
Teek char baje meri
Ab bhi
Phir wapis nahi aati
Magar km se km
Tumhara last seen dekhna nahi padta
Ya calculate nahi karna padta
Ki 3 baje status like kiya hai
Toh char baje se phele toh nahi soyi hogi
Hum jante hai,
Tumhara kusoor nahi hai isme
Kabhi nahi tha
Humara hi darr tha
Aur jaise ki hote hai darr
Kafi irrational se
Waisa hi tha
Ab nahi hai
Kyunki tum bhi toh nahi ho
Kaha ho?
Bas yaha nahi ho..

Kyu bhayi?

jaise kisi bharre hue 
Goddam meh,
thodda aur maal chadda raha hu

jaise kisi thakke hue 
Majdoor ko
do kam aur bata raha hu.

Jaise 
Kisi bachche
Ki school bag meh
Char kitab aur thoos raha hu

jaise 
kisi do seater 
pe tesre ki 
jagah mang raha hu

jaise 
kisi ristedar k waha 
do din keh k
hafte bhar rukh raha hu

Ek kam bada raha hu,

jaddti kar raha hu.. 

jab gum-e-dil
Tumhe suna raha hu..

Kyunki usse ajj yaad nahi kiya

Busy tha
Sach meh
Woh client neh bhetta liya
Phir Sir aagye the
Time hi na milla
Jab ghar aaraha tha
Toh yaad aaya,
Aree aaj bhul gaya,
Yaad karna!
Bura laga
Jaise kisi ka udhar
Mar liya ho
Koi purana vada phir se
Yaad hi agaya ho..
Yeh toh nahi hai
Ki Kabhi manga nahi tha yeh
Ki ek din bhulla hi du
Kuch aage hi badd jau
Thakk gaya tha
Phir kyu?

Love in the times of facebook

Okay
It started
Not on Facebook really
But another blog
Another website
But it went on to Facebook soon
And we became friends
Facebook friends
It was great
So much to find out about her
Did you know?
She once dressed as a santa clause :O

And soon we became good friends
We use share each other's shares
Like good friends do
And then one day
She decided to like all my profile photos
And we were close friends

I used to get notified
When she updated her
Thoughts on feminism
Persuit of happiness,
And the joy of independence..

Soon Facebook became secondary
The news traveled through me
To her wall
And sometimes,
Sometimes I had a say too
Screw you Facebook
And then,
Then things fall apart
For sometimes
She'd put in sad status
And I would mark it love
One day I decided
To try to move on
And she was Unmarked
As a close friend
But I continued see her wall
And soon her status were not sad..
Just general things
On feminism,
Persuit of happiness
And joy of independence
And I was not posting anything
Which was not fair on me
So I blocked her
And there was a wall between our walls
And I wondered
If we could have a window
But she has a Ubuntu now
And we are not compatible

Things are slow
The other day I saw a friends photo
There was this one comment
Which Facebook was refusing to show
Mocking me
Do you really want to
"See more?"

Beautiful People

To tell Mum,
You know what?
You are my hero.
And you always have been

To remind Dad,
Remember
One day you got us ice-cream
All the way from mallital
Runing Back home
And the ice cream didn't melt
And I did
And I still remember..

To siblings,
Who handle my food,
And still have patience
Not to poison it, yet

To friends
Who are always there
Evebthough
We go on not talking for days

To all the
wonderful, beautiful
Soul stirring folks
Who have touched my life
Truly and deeply
I am sorry
For
I keep saying this
In closed lips
Thank You.
Thank You you came
Thank You you stopped
Thank You you listened
Thank You you caree
It means a world to me

And I would love to say it loud
Someday,.
Instead of the usual
Nikal Raha meh...
I love you...

Once is not enough

I lost you
But because once was not enough
So i keep loosing you
Every day
Thodda thodda
When I am out there shopping
And I don't know which colour
When I see this hilarious meme
And i dont know whom to send
How i met this crazy man
And no not you to hear about it
When I see a star lit sky
And know she would have liked it
To ask pyaaz kya bhav chal rahe
To send something randomly written for random purposes
And I like rituals,
To do simple things
Again and again
Finding a pace of my own
Because once  is not enough..