Meditations: Love? Craving? Security?

Dekho yaar. When I was young there is used to be this candy center on our way from school to home. And my Mum used to come receive me from school. I used roll everyday one the road begging her to get me that ice-cream. She used to be so embarrassed while she drags me back to home. She would sometimes also get me one. I guess , over the years, the ice-cream has changed. The newest ice cream has been this lover of mine who is now gone. Like she is still on Earth but she is gone from life. And I she is my new ice-cream. I don't know what separates Desire to Obsession to Love. As the relationship has come to pass I am confusing between these two.

Another is  love as security. We live in a lonely world, we feel threatened by it. An uncle yesterday start fighting with a waiter because the Napkins in the restaurant were over. Okay? Napkins when did they become so important. It is because we are so scared we depend on other people to seek safety. He didn't treat me that well. She promised to love me. He promised me to stay with me forever. We accept for people around us to make the world a safer place. Love is one such promise of security. It says when I cry, you get me a nappkin, or better we cry together. Often that promise is not fulfilled. And there is a perceived loss of love. Truly its your security which gets threatened and you fear.

So if you see love as a continuation of  desire and security. And stop romanticizing it so much. You might have a better  time dealing with your heart break.